food

i've been doing a lot of cooking lately. which is normal for me, but i finally managed to take some pictures!

i made baked vegan onion rings and they were amazing!

who knew that baked onion rings totally satisfy onion ring cravings? yum! i'll definitely be making these again.
i also made a potato - brussel sprout hash. it was also really good.

this is a picture right when i started cooking. i forgot to take a finished picture. ive never had brussel sprouts with potatoes before. great combo.
i also went out to eat a little too much. i went to Francescas with my parents. me and my dad both got the red heart shaped ravioli. he was so embarrassed ordering it. the best part was when the server put down the pork chops infront of my dad and he had to be like no... that's not mine. hahaha. sadly it wasn't even that good. ive really never been disappointed at Francescas, so it was a sad day. it just was kind of tasteless. the cream sauce was really dull and the ravoli was so plain. regardless, here's a picture of it!

i had a really fun day yesterday with Michelle and Rosangela. we found out it was national margarita day and it was perfect because i had to take my car into the shop so i had the day off work. michelle modeled my etsy clothes and then we headed to Pepes. Got some margaritas, then went to woodfield, spent way too much money and got really drunk at Ruby Tuesday. haha.

after that my awful headache decided to kick in. i picked up my car and then headed to whole foods for dinner and drinks with stevie. it would have been way more fun if i wasnt in so much pain, but it was still a good time hanging out with her. shes one of my best friends.

i'm trying to finish my David Bowie biography before it's due back at the library in about a week, so time to do some reading. i am treating this like a school book and that makes it super easy to procrastinate and not finish it. ive already renewed it once, so i have to finish! it's really interesting, it's just not the most entertaining.

rambling

maybe it's this time of year, but i'm starting to hate being alone. i am so grateful for the people i have in my life, but i wish i had someone to share my day to day with. i know i do this to myself. i break up with everyone. i have gone back to thinking of one person in particular that i let go. was it a mistake? i know we had some problems, but maybe it was worth it. maybe life is never perfect. i think i just have this insanely high expectation that the person i'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with will make me so happy that i'll never doubt anything. i'll never wonder if there's someone else out there. a soulmate. if that does exist. a person who will take care of your heart. i know that this is going to sound incredibly stupid but, i was listening to the radio the other day and i heard an onstar commercial and it made me start crying. the woman got in an accident and the onstar person asked who the woman would like to call and the woman was on the verge of crying and she said she wanted her husband. and he answered the phone and just sounded so worried. they both sounded like they cared so much for each other. it made me really upset because it made me think of the person i was currently with. i wouldn't have called him if i got in an accident. i probably wouldnt even have told him unless my car was completely ruined. as stupid as it sounds, that commercial really put my relationship in perspective. i had to end it because i just didn't care enough about this guy to think to call him first when something occurred in my life.

thinking back to the other person, i probably would have called him if we were still in a relationship. we really did care for each other. but wouldn't it be pathetic to go back to someone you've dumped? not that it matters what others think, but it would look like i'm settling and he's desperate. i don't know if that would be true. i do miss him. but on the other hand. we broke up for a reason. it's too much pressure to try again and then i'll feel completely awful if i just get smacked in the face with the realization that we really broke up for a reason. i couldn't do it to him twice. and it was just really hard for me to handle his disease. heart breaking at times and really angering the rest of the time. and i know it's not his fault that he has it, but the fact that he didn't care for himself is what pissed me off.
maybe someday i'll find what i'm looking for. i have a pretty clear picture in my head of how i want things to be, but it's okay if it doesn't work out that way. overall i'm happy with what i have and i love my life.

Thanksgiving

after baking mini apple pies for three hours, driving an hour and half, stuffing my face all day and chugging wine, then driving an hour and a half back, i'm home in my cozy apartment laying on the couch in my sweats. i love hanging out with my family. i don't think anyone's family is as fun as mine. this year was the first year we didn't have to go to two separate dinners, which made it even better.not to say i don't miss the side of my family we didn't see tonight. but christmas is a month away.

i was thinking about things i am thankful for on my drive home. i honestly have too much to be thankful for. i am in such a good place in my life right now. every time i would go to my uncle dennis's house he would always show me his music magazine The Big Takeover and lend me band biography books. i have always had this crazy appreciation for people who can create music. i love making all types of things but music is the one thing i can't. i can't even sing. i just think it's so awesome that someone can visualize sounds and then someone write lyrics that fit. i just wouldn't even know where to begin. i am thankful that musicians exist and share their creativity.

neon indian

i made soy chorizo and potato tacos tonight. yum! so good. i need to make these more often. i decided to drink wine tonight too. it's my friday since i took tomorrow off for my sister's graduation ceremony. i'm so proud of her! i'm really glad she's done with nursing school. hopefully she can find a job right away. mostly so she stops complaining lol. no i really hope she finds something. i know she hates waitressing.
thought i was gonna hang out with my bf tonight but he's getting drinks with work people so i should be cleaning or doing something productive with my time... i'm posting on here though, so that's semi productive. i haven't written in a while. i miss it.

i can't stop listening to the new neon indian cd (the above music video is just an image fyi). i never listened to this band because i always thought their name was trying too hard. but i love this cd so much. i really wish i started listening to them sooner. they sounds like m83 but almost better. ahhh.

i knew it!

i've been saying it this whole year. maybe all of last year too. i needed a change but my life was just so stagnant and i felt no matter how i tried i couldn't make anything happen.
well it happened!
new job, new apartment, new guy (maybe).

i'm really happy right now.
although, i lost another friendship, but again, it's for the best. this person took advantage of me and i never want to speak with them again. looking at it from a positive, i'm happy this happened now because i am stronger than ever and i have a lot of other exciting things to focus on, so i can put this in the back of my mind.

i've been adding a lot to my etsy site. my pictures are so crappy though, i really need to have someone help me take real pictures.

outfits

i couldn't afford to go shopping much at all this summer, but i wanted to dress cute for some nights out. i put some effort into these cute outfits without buying anything new.

top: Express
shorts: H&M
Necklaces: XXI & Noble Town Vintage

I wear my Noble Town Vintage crystal necklace all the time. It's definitely one of my favorites. Here's a close up of it.

This weekend i wore:
top: urban outfitters
hot pink bra: VS
black jean shorts: Delias jeans i cut into shorts
tights: target
shoes: Rosegold
necklaces: Noble Town Vintage & a necklace from a quarter machine at t-bell

huge updates

so much has happened in the past week! i got the job! i put in my two weeks notice at FTD. i also signed a lease for an apartment in downtown AH. i feel like i havent stopped smiling this whole week. my friends have been awesome lately too. i just couldn't be any happier with all these new changes! this is what i've been aching for over the past months. i knew it would happen. & it did! everything's falling into place for me.

i also found out that the one guy liked me too. although it doesn't really change much since he won't hang out with me bc his friends don't like me. it's bs but i can't let one stupid thing get me down when i have so much amazingness going on in my life. september is going to be a great month for me.