4th of july...

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I can't believe some people are just so selfish. it sickens me.
I have been watching That 70s Show a lot lately. Jackie's character is funny because she's so self absorbed it's ridiculous. i really can't believe that those type of people exist. and i can't believe that i've been so blind to not realize that i've been friends with jackie the past few years.

Lucas and Michelle want me to go on their friend's boat with them tomorow. i am just in a terrible mood and i want to stay home. i dont want to spread my awful mood around, like some people.

I wish i could just redo this holiday. yesterday was the best day of the weekend because i stayed home. I shouldn't have let her ruin this day. it was great seeing my family and overall it was a good day. things could always be worse, i guess i should just put this in perspective. i hate negativity and i guess her chipping away has finally brought me to this point.

i just have to deal. i just wish i had something that made me really happy. something needs to change and i'm in charge of making that happen. i will start doing things that make me happy, starting tomorrow. exercise, reading, job searching, playing with charlee, watching more that 70s show, seeing my family, watching the fireworks if i feel like it, these are all things that make me happy. i need to be a little more selfish sometimes and stop trying to make everyone else happy for a change. this is my life. i only get one shot.

weekend

this weekend was really fun. i'm sad that it's already over. i spent a lot of time with my friends and family.
on friday stevie and i went to Honey for dinner. it's a cute little cafe in glen ellyn. they have a lot of vegetarian options on their menu and they use locally grown produce. i was going to take a picture while we were there but i forgot.
on saturday i took charlee to the groomer and spent the rest of the day hanging out with my parents. i helped my mom make an amazing vegetarian dinner - stuffed poblano peppers and mushroom wellington. yum! (picture above)
at night i went out to a bar with jackie and some new friends. on my way there i kept getting lost and it was putting me in the worst mood. i even thought about turning around and just going home. but i knew it would disappoint jacq & i did want to see her. as soon as i got there and said hi to everyone i ordered vegas bombs for me and jackie. after that everything was uphill. we danced and talked all night. it was so much fun. we even went up on the stage and danced.
this morning i woke up to a pretty bad hangover. i ended up laying in bed until around 430pm. at night i went over to michelle and lucas's new apartment. it is so cute i love it! lucas made us pierogies. so good. i had such a fun time just hanging out and watching the academy awards with them. i wish they lived closer :( i'm planning to go over there a lot in the summer to lay out at her pool. and i'll be coming over to watch true blood since they have HBO!
tomorrow i'm planning on having an extra productive day at work and then a big (much needed) workout at night. bed time!