weekend

this weekend was really fun. i'm sad that it's already over. i spent a lot of time with my friends and family.
on friday stevie and i went to Honey for dinner. it's a cute little cafe in glen ellyn. they have a lot of vegetarian options on their menu and they use locally grown produce. i was going to take a picture while we were there but i forgot.
on saturday i took charlee to the groomer and spent the rest of the day hanging out with my parents. i helped my mom make an amazing vegetarian dinner - stuffed poblano peppers and mushroom wellington. yum! (picture above)
at night i went out to a bar with jackie and some new friends. on my way there i kept getting lost and it was putting me in the worst mood. i even thought about turning around and just going home. but i knew it would disappoint jacq & i did want to see her. as soon as i got there and said hi to everyone i ordered vegas bombs for me and jackie. after that everything was uphill. we danced and talked all night. it was so much fun. we even went up on the stage and danced.
this morning i woke up to a pretty bad hangover. i ended up laying in bed until around 430pm. at night i went over to michelle and lucas's new apartment. it is so cute i love it! lucas made us pierogies. so good. i had such a fun time just hanging out and watching the academy awards with them. i wish they lived closer :( i'm planning to go over there a lot in the summer to lay out at her pool. and i'll be coming over to watch true blood since they have HBO!
tomorrow i'm planning on having an extra productive day at work and then a big (much needed) workout at night. bed time!

for you

the reason we go for certain people is because they are a reflection of ourselves. love is completely narcissistic.
you had all the qualities i began to hate in myself and i couldn't continue to see it everyday in you.
the reasons i liked you in the beginning became the reasons i couldn't be with you later on.
lust misleads us right from the beginning. it makes the other seem infallible,perfect. they become an obsession because they are everything you've always wanted. but are they? when the lust fades we see the person we are left with. i was left with a version of myself, faults and all. i was sick of dealing with the same downsides in myself and in someone else. i needed to improve how i felt about myself but it was impossible without you improving too. you said you were working on yourself but nothing ever changed. i had to escape and start over. it was selfish to leave, but love is selfish. we only care about the happiness the person brings us.
im sorry i hurt you. i still feel like you are a part of me. i want you to be happy.

los campesinos

(via)

i just bought myself this los campesinos shirt as a present to myself because i've been working so much lately. the purpose of working is to have money and the purpose of money is to buy cool shit, so it's justified. actually this is present #3 i've gotten myself this week. i also got myself three shirts from Express and the book - I Don't Care About Your Band. oh well, i deserve it. if i dont buy myself stuff to make me happy no one else will. or something like that.
speaking of los campesinos i found these lyrics particularly enlightening over the course of my life.

I taught myself the only way to vaguely get along in love
Is to like the other slightly less than you get in return
I keep feeling like I'm being undercut