gooooo blackhawks!

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i love watching hockey. it gives me such a feeling of home. even just hearing it play without paying attention to it is comforting. it also makes me sad at times, but i don't want to get into it.

carrie bradshaw

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i have been watching a lot of sex and the city lately because it's on e! all the time. i miss this show so much. it definitely has it's cheesy moments, but it also at times is more real and relate-able than any other tv show.
i felt inspired after watching an episode today where Carrie doesn't have enough money to buy her apartment from Aiden. Even though she doesn't endless amounts of money at her disposal she is still able to get by and do what she loves for her career. i can't stand my job anymore. it feels like i'm working so hard and getting no where. what is this for? my job is not satisfying to me and it does not make me happy. i want to find a job doing something i love. i have so many talents and untapped potential just waiting to get out. i'm spending 80% of my weeks (95% now that i have to work weekeds for mday) doing something i dont care about and getting nothing out of it.
taking carrie as my inspiration i am going to start working hard to find out what i love and develop skills that will help get me there. i need to stop wasting my life. it's my life. i'm going to make it exactly what i want it to be, no more waiting. i'm breaking out of my comfort zone. im going to put a goal together and set up check points so this really happens.

teeth

today i finally got my wisdom teeth removed. it was kind of scary, especially hearing them crack my teeth, but it didn't take too long and the extraction itself didn't hurt. it was a little freaky thinking in the middle of it that there's no way they can stop now if i wanted them to. i thought he was having trouble with each tooth so he was just loosening each one and then coming back to it later, but then he said "one more to go". i couldn't believe the other three were already out.

i got home a few hours ago and i have just been laying in bed watching tv. my sister stopped over and we watched the teen mom 2 dr drew after show. my mom made me vegetable soup for dinner, but it stung a lot trying to eat it. plus my mouth keeps bleeding so it wasn't very appetizing. i feel like my stomach must be just full of blood.

so far it's not too bad, but my mouth is really sore. hopefully i can find something good to watch on netflix.

weather

i love this weather! it's been so great out the past few days and i have been taking full advantage of it. on saturday stevie and i went to evanston to walk around and we went to the vogue fabric store. we had a tcby misfortune but other than that it was so fun.
yesterday i decided i wanted to sit outside in the 80 degree (!) weather so jackie and i went to westwood to get bloodymarys. love it.

charlee

charlee is the first dog i've ever had that is "mine". i never before realized how much work it is to have a dog. that's probably because she's not just a dog, she's a super high maintenance, neurotic, asshole dog. my sister and i used to joke that she has no soul.

when she chews on the walls and barks at the tv so much we cant watch it, i sometimes hate myself for getting her. she has a lot of energy, and i do as much with her as i can. i have a neighbor walk her while i'm at work three days a week. everyday when i get home from work i take her on a half hour walk around the block. on weekends when the weather's nice we sometimes go around twice.
the walks are not usually very enjoyable for me since i'm trying to hold her poo bag and keep her from barking, spinning and darting at passing cars. she's tripped me with her leash more times than i can count by being a crazy spaz.

but the mornings remind me why i like her. Actually let me specify, weekday mornings, are when like her. i always wake up with her next to me in bed. when i get up to start getting ready for work she waits in my bed and i come out every 15 min or so to lay with her or pet her. she's just so calm and cute and tired. these are the best moments.
weekend mornings are a whole other story. crying in my face, standing on me, barking at the door at 730 am. she does not tolerate hangovers.

but i wanted this to end on a happy note. awww cute charlee sleepyface mornings.

more posts

let's talk about why i dont update this as much as i'd like:

1. i created my account with my second gmail address that i hardly ever access. sad as this sounds i'm too lazy to log out of the regular email and log in to my secondary address to update my blog

2. work is a nightmare and when i get home im not so much in the mood for writing. im more in the mood for force feeding myself until i can't get off the couch

3. i have absolutely nothing interesting to say. which hasn't stopped me before.

4. charleston e. chew. very demanding.
that being said i want to start updating more so my goal is once a week. let's see how it goes.

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