doggies

stevie brought jenny over to hang out with charlee. jenny is like 4 times the size of charlee. it's pretty cute how charlee runs around and tries to get jenny to play with her.
matt's bday party is on friday. all you can drink for $25. it's a really good deal and im probably going to get way too drunk. jackie's birthday party is on saturday. that will be fun too. john's throwing her a surprise party in a hotel room. i bet she will really like that.
i have to find some time this week to finish matt's present and then go get jackies. i wish i had an idea for something really good to get her. i always buy her nice make up, but that seems so generic. oh well i don't have any other ideas.
im going to be so exhausted and double hung over on sunday i can't wait.

relaxing sunday

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i had a productive day today. i woke up with a migraine and figured the day would be shit, but after i took my prescription migraine medicine i felt pretty good within an hour. i hung out at my parents house today. i made chocolate chip cookies with my mom and then played super nintendo for a while with my sister. i finally gave my dad the louis ck dvd i forgot to give him on christmas day. my mom makes these things called cheesy rice roll ups which she made for dinner tonight. they sound and look so disgusting, but i love them. they are crepes filled with rice ( and ground beef which mine didnt have) and then they have some mixture poured over them that contains mushroom soup and cheese. then its cooked in the oven for a while. she gave me some to take home so i'm excited for lunch tomorrow already.
when i got home i just did some laundry, took charlee out a few hundred times and read. i'm reading this book, "Please Kill Me", the oral history of punk rock. it's a really interesting. i kind of want to read more now, so see ya.
oh one more thing- 2011 so far is pretty great.

nye eve

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having a whole week off work is more boring than it sounds. especially when none of my friends want to go out on weeknights. especially when one friend in particular isn't going out and bringing a certain someone. its really weird how upset this makes me, i didn't realize i would care so much. i haven't crushed this hard since highschool. it hurts the pit of my stomach. especially when im alone. i keep trying to do things anything to get my mind off it. i want to just forget it and stop saying stupid things to him on fb, to my friends in rl. this blog is such a middle school diary for me.
tonight im going to weber with a group of friends. it will be okay. we are dressing up and it will be pretty awkward im thinking. plus james' girlfriend seems to hate me right now. i dont know. i dont care.
i feel kind of depressed. i really hope this feeling wears off. nye is going to be such bullshit. no ones doing anything. i want 2011 to be better, and i guess doing nothing will be a better start to the new year than hanging around at some super lame party like i did for 2010. god 2010 has been such a suckfest.

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that pukey confused love feeling is back. this is a complicated situation. this year has been awful in boy world, so i dont even know. the more i say the worse it will get. i dont even want to think about it but i can't stop. it's such a bad idea. but he's so cute.

im so excited for christmas! i will be off all week next week. winter break for adults!

wedstadium last night with matt k, matt l, michelle and jorge. it was a lot of fun. the old coldstone crew.

for me

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i am completely satisfied with being single right now. i am really happy with my life and the way things are going for me. i feel like a boy would just waste a lot of my time. i know this because they have been wasting my time for years now. i mean not that i have some epic project they are keeping me from.
they take part of me away. i am not completely myself, i always change no matter how much i tell myself that i haven't or i won't. because when i look back now i see all the things i've missed because of them. or maybe i was wasting their time since i was the one to end it. every time.

this year has been the worst with all of the awkward first dates and kisses and calls. i don't want to bother with it anymore. i am too picky. no one is good enough or they kiss my forehead or their mouth tastes weird or they sell beef jerky. i give up and i am happy about giving up. i feel like the burden of caring about this is over.

wednesday

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i've been so lazy about blogging lately. so here's a story. i was just walking down the stairs carrying a bowl of tomato soup i didnt finish when charlee comes barreling down the stairs after me. she loses control of her legs and tumbles down the stairs into my legs knocking me down and throwing tomato soup everywhere. picture unrelated.

deer and undead

i finally got my computer set up at our new apartment! i have kind of a headache but i wanted to give a quick update since i haven't posted in so long.
here's my deer tattoo all colored in and healed. i love it so much. i wish it was summer so i could wear shorts more often.

i was a zombie for halloween this year. the bars were so lame, dressing up was the funnest part. we didnt want to go downtown bc i knew that finding parking would be so frusterating, so instead we went to suburb bars on friday and edison park bars on saturday. i took this picture somewhere near chicago heights.